Showing posts with label ego. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ego. Show all posts

Friday, October 28, 2011

Mirroring: In reference to yesterday's post

I created the same blog post yesterday on Herfuture.com. I was hoping to get some insight into this issue from some of the more spiritually advanced ladies. Someone brought the following article to my attention: The Blessing of Difficult People: It’s Not What You Think.

It's a really interesting article about mirroring. Mirroring is a really intriguing subject that Gabby speaks about in her books. It occurs when the outside world mirrors your thoughts and feelings inside. Perhaps these ideas coming to the surface from other people was just a mirror of the doubt that I myself was feeling about the subject. I couldn't or chose not to express this doubt and let it hang in my subconscious for fear of feeling like a fake.Out came my true feelings through other people's words. Pretty powerful stuff right? I think the lesson here is that it's normal to feel doubtful and unsure of the journey you are embarking on. But bringing these feelings to surface helps to dissipate them.


Someone else on Herfuture.com suggested that it was a test to see how devoted I was to my practice. Could my ego be testing my loyalty? I'm sure! If you remember from previous posts about the ego, it cannot survive in love. The ego wants to forever keep us in dark, sad, fear.Perhaps this was my ego's attempt to win me back to the dark side. I don't think I want to go back there. Although I still have questions, a life full of love and happiness seems much richer than one full of fear. Don't you think? Not much to lose.


And that's my conclusion. I won't let the ego win! I am sort of even more intrigued now then I was before. I want to read more, study more, and learn more. I want to embrace my spiritual practice like never before. Really take it head on and see what happens. I want to become a miracle maker and teacher. One step at a time. I think I will start with A Course in Miracles which can be summed up with this:
 
"Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists."

Intriguing right? Stay tuned and take this course with me to change your life forever.

<3 Live Love Miracles 

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Day 1 of the BFL Summit: SARK

Day 1 of The Big Fat Lies Summit included a call with SARK (Susan Ariel Rainbow Kennedy) and Lisa Nichols.

SARK and Amy started off the call letting us all know that we are not alone with our Big Fat Lies (BFL). Every single person has BFL that they tell themselves. Even SARK, Amy, President Obama, and Angelina Jolie. So how do you deal with these BFL??? You make that sacred connection to your inner (wiser) self. Making that connection can be difficult at first so SARK recommended writing yourself a letter from your inner self to let the truth flow out on its own.

She also gave us three crucial steps to achieving harmony:
1. Express
2. Release
3. Relief
The first step is the most important. This is all about expressing your real feelings. Let yourself truly feel whatever is happening for you in that moment and don't repress any of it. Otherwise it would cause a dangerous flood of emotion at a later date. I'm going to dwell on that a bit as I have read a bit about that is Gabrielle Bernstein's books as well. Think about how powerful your feelings and emotions are. You know that if you just hide a feeling it will continue to come up again and again in different situations. It will grow and manifest into something much bigger than the original feeling. So the next time something comes up for you, sit there and let yourself feel all the feelings associated with the event. Acknowledge them as being present. But then let them go (2nd step: release) Forgive yourself, forgive others, and move past it. Practice this and you will immediately reap the benefits (3rd step of feeling relief).
This acknowledgment of your feelings and thoughts is such a great tool. Dr.Chris (the leader of my meditation group) also spoke about noticing your thoughts and feelings during meditation and then releasing them to achieve real peace. SARK suggests actually saying to yourself "I see you, I hear you, I acknowledge you".
So for me, my inner mean girl is telling me that I will never be smart enough to be successful. I see this BFL, I hear it (a lot), I am acknowledging it, and I am letting it go because my inner wiser self is telling me this is bull shit. I will no longer let this BFL lead me through life and hold me back.This is an inner dialogue you need to have with yourself to work through your feelings and BFL. Take control back from your 'inner mean girl'!


Stay tuned for the Lisa Nichols blog. She is awesome!

Live, love, and expect miracles <3

Friday, October 7, 2011

The Ego

Wednesday nights I meet with a meditation group in a Yoga studio. It is led by an ER doctor who is very zen and does a great job helping everyone relax. In the beginning he spoke about love. How we have the power to transfer love and energy from us to someone else and back. He gave an example of his dog. How when he is in the present moment with her and really enjoying her he can feel the love radiate from her to him and back. It's a good lesson in living completely in the present.

It was a bit more difficult for me to relax during my meditation this time. I had a lot on my mind. I was feeling guilty for only getting to spend an hour with my son before the class. I felt like I had a lot to do at home and at work. A co-worker's wife was diagnosed with cancer recently so I was thinking about that. I just couldn't relax. I guess you could say it was difficult to be in the present moment.
Knowing what I know about the ego, I was sure it was rearing its ugly head. For those that are not familiar, the ego is that voice inside that tries to keep you down, negative, and fearful. We all have it. Christine Arylo calls it your inner mean girl. When we choose love, we also choose to turn away from the ego. This is difficult for me and I found the ego to manifest itself into my legs that night. As I was trying feverishly to clear my head, I started to feel great amounts of energy in my legs. Think Restless Leg Syndrome. I felt I had to move them or walk around. It was a very strong feeling. Luckily, the 20 minutes were over and I was able to relax again (funny to relax AFTER the meditation). I shared my meditation with the group. Dr.Chris pointed out that I was probably right that my emotions and feelings had taken hold of my body. He pointed out that we all have 'inner demons' and the point is not to release them into the world but to bring them out into our consciousness and be aware of them and deal with them. Whether it's your inner demons, mean girl, ego, feelings, emotions, or fears, it is always beneficial to be honest with yourself, be aware of them, and deal with them. Meditation is a great way to bring things to the surface (as I did that night) and I find Tapping to be a great way to get rid of them. I will get into Tapping with Jessica Ortner in my next post.

Until then, live, love, and expect miracles!

I love this picture of Gabby meditating! Even in our fast paced lives, we should still find time for peace.